John Henry Newman

Here you will find the Long Poem My Birthday of poet John Henry Newman

My Birthday

Let the sun summon all his beams to hold 
Bright pageant in his court, the cloud-paved sky 
Earth trim her fields and leaf her copses cold; 
Till the dull month with summer-splendours vie. 
It is my Birthday;?and I fain would try, 
Albeit in rude, in heartfelt strains to praise 
My God, for He hath shielded wondrously 
From harm and envious error all my ways, 
And purged my misty sight, and fixed on heaven 
my gaze.

Not in that mood, in which the insensate crowd 
Of wealthy folly hail their natal day,? 
With riot throng, and feast, and greetings loud, 
Chasing all thoughts of God and heaven away. 
Poor insect! feebly daring, madly gay, 
What! joy because the fulness of the year 
Marks thee for greedy death a riper prey? 
Is not the silence of the grave too near? 
Viewest thou the end with glee, meet scene for 
harrowing fear? 


Go then, infatuate! where the festive hall, 
The curious board, the oblivious wine invite; 
Speed with obsequious haste at Pleasure's call, 
And with thy revels scare the far-spent night. 
Joy thee, that clearer dawn upon thy sight 
The gates of death;?and pride thee in thy sum 
Of guilty years, and thy increasing white 
Of locks; in age untimely frolicksome, 
Make much of thy brief span, few years are yet to 
come!


Yet wiser such, than he whom blank despair 
And fostered grief's ungainful toil enslave; 
Lodged in whose furrowed brow thrives fretful care, 
Sour graft of blighted hope; who, when the wave 
Of evil rushes, yields,?yet claims to rave 
At his own deed, as the stern will of heaven. 
In sooth against his Maker idly brave, 
Whom e'en the creature-world has tossed and 
driven, 
Cursing the life he mars, 'a boon so kindly given.'


He dreams of mischief; and that brainborn ill 
Man's open face bears in his jealous view. 
Fain would he fly his doom; that doom is still 
His own black thoughts, and they must aye 
pursue. 
Too proud for merriment, or the pure dew 
Soft glistening on the sympathising cheek; 
As some dark, lonely, evil-natured yew, 
Whose poisonous fruit?so fabling poets speak? 
Beneath the moon's pale gleam the midnight hag 
doth seek.


No! give to me, Great Lord, the constant soul, 
Nor fooled by pleasure nor enslaved by care; 
Each rebel-passion (for Thou canst) controul, 
And make me know the tempter's every snare. 
What, though alone my sober hours I wear, 
No friend in view, and sadness o'er my mind 
Throws her dark veil??Thou but accord this 
prayer, 
And I will bless Thee for my birth, and find 
That stillness breathes sweet tones, and solitude is 
kind. 

Each coming year, O grant it to refine 
All purer motions of this anxious breast; 
Kindle the steadfast flame of love divine, 
And comfort me with holier thoughts possest; 
Till this worn body slowly sink to rest, 
This feeble spirit to the sky aspire,? 
As some long-prisoned dove toward her nest? 
There to receive the gracious full-toned lyre, 
Bowed low before the Throne 'mid the bright 
seraph choir.